Art by TheDotsAreJoined

Behind the story “HEART TRIUMPHANT”:

This was a true story of my life. I was married for 17 years with my ex husband. When I married him, He was nothing, very poor, but I loved his heart. Years by years I supported his needs, and he always promise and promise but he almost never fulfilled his promises. He got fired from his works 6 times. He didn’t work just stayed at home.

Years by years I had to serve him financially and sexually. I felt like I was his Black Horse. When I got home very tired, he undressed me and he did sexual things then he left me. It happened for years, until I hate my own skin and scared to see him. So I left him for good but I was in paint.

One day I joined Facebook (Mid year 2010), that was how I started to write, to

Poetess Aline Natasya

heal the pain my expressed it through ink and share my pain. Time goes by, I learn from my FB friends how to love and how to share. I have to love myself before I start to love others.

I smile and I share love now, knowing that I am in love with myself now. I forgive myself, I forgive my ex husband. We are now like a friend (even not too close), very peaceful in my heart.

The keys are: Don’t deny that I have problem, Accept my problem, Forgiveness, Try to find solutions and choose the best.

HEART TRIUMPHANT

Written by Aline Natasya

Country : Indonesia

April 17, 2011

I lost my faith in love after I left you alone

I cried and drown myself in my darkness

My life was like hell, no light just dark

I begun to became a weird and so selfish

Within my screen I hide to release the pain

Day by day I battle with my own emotions

Angry, hate, sad, disappointed, all the bad things

All I want was to hurt people and let them feel my suffer

I smile but deep down in my heart I cried, badly.

God has plan for me and make my tears soften my heart

I write everyday and make friend with writers

My tears are the witness of all my notes

Because the one who write is bleeding

Every words are reflected my deep feeling

But it cure me slowly knowing that I am not alone

I struggle to fight hatred and learn to love myself.

Learning how to win my own heart and start to love you

I can only hope that my past will not become my shadow

Because your love will wipe my tears and fill it with joyful

I want to start my new life with full of love and caring.

Love, love and love myself, I say it everyday

Learn, learn and learn my heart, I do it everyday

Win, win and win my love, I sense it everyday

I believe one day I will become a champion to win my heart

And find myself with full of love and smile in my face

Look at me now, I smile, I laugh and still cry but in different pattern

I love myself, I love you, I love we, I love all

I am a champion because I was born as a champion

In my battle, I stand again knowing the truth that I win my own heart

The heart of love with full of passion to face my new life with you

Tags: Aline Natasya, Heart Triumphant, Poetry

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